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Growing up without neither of my parents in my life was really hard for me.I was always around someone with their parent and it made me feel like my parents didn't want me because i wasn't with them like my friends and cousin were with theirs.It wasn't until i got around 5 years of age when i ask my aunt why the other kids got to be with their parents and not me and u she responded with "its not you baby,sometimes parents do what they think is best for their kids".whatever that suppose to mean.
THE best thing that ever happened to me was my step-daughter tareana. She gives me joys like no other,lets me know its OK when i think the worst of life,all while keeping me on my feet and GIVING ME A RUN FOR my money.but that don't stop the tingle in my heart she gives me all the time.I never knew my purpose of life,many days i was just here but when she was brought in to my life i then felt i was no longer just here and I found my purpose in life.
I don't often enjoy a lot of different shades of colors,that's why my favorite color has always been pink,purple,and yellow.These colors has always been my favorite because they can either be dual or bright and stand out or catch my attention when I bypass them.but what really makes me like theses colors is they can go perfectly together on almost any and everything;they are three colors that I can just put on everything.these colors just does something to me when i have them all together and thats what makes them my favorite colors.
I can hear my mom in my head saying"baby dont be in no rush for no baby,their not cheap,there wouldn't be any having stuff to yourself;because your kid(s) always wants what you have,no hanging out with Ur friends cause it might be hard finding somebody to watch your child,and a lot of sleepless nights"those words i took heed to and they stuck to me like glue.even when i'm near a baby and i get baby fever,its like her little head goes to floating around me saying those words to me.
When i get my taxes i plan on buying me a new 2007 2009,or 2010 dodge charger.I been wanting this car for sometime now.i first drove one back when i first got my licenses back in 2009,my sister had one and she let me drive and i swear it was like i was floating on clouds from the smoothness the tires felt driving on the road to the speed it when i pressed the accelerator.i loved that car and i always planned on getting one when i got a job to save enough for one.
Growing up all the kids around in the neighbor i grew up in loved to go outside and play hide-n-seek or kick ball,etc but not me i was the only kid in the house during the summer or after school hours because i growing up i thought i was to pretty to be and the sun and was afraid the sun was going to turn me black which i was afraid of due to them picking on my brother because he was darker then all the other kids in the neighbor hood we played with every day.
before i got my pell grant money i dreamed of all these plans i had when i received my allowance.To be able to catch up on my bills and still have some left is a big brick off my back that i no longer have to carry;i even had a list of all the things i wanted to get with the money.From my new 2007 dodge charger i have been dreaming about since i layed my eyes on one to the few trips i had planned to take my daughter;bush gardens,Nickelodeon hotel,the fair,etc.
I CALL MY CAR "BURNEY".IT'S AN 2005 PURPLE FORD TAURUS THAT MAKES A LOT OF LOUD NOISE LITERALLY FROM THE TIME YOU CRANK IT UP TILL THE TIME YOU CUT IT OFF;SO YOU HEAR IT UP THE ROAD BEFORE YOU SEE IT.FUNNY RIGHT?I KNOW CRAZY PART IS I KIND OF ENJOYED IT BECAUSE I DON'T HAVE TO BLOW OR WAIT FOR ANYONE WHEN I HAVE TO PICK THEM UP BECAUSE THEY HEAR THE CAR BEFORE I GET TO THEIR STREET;SO THEY ALREADY BE WAITING THE CAR OUTSIDE WHEN I FINALLY DO GET TO THEIR STREET.
MY FAVORITE THING TO EAT IS CHICKEN(IT COULD BE ANY KIND;FRIED,BAKED,GRILLED,AND/OR BOILED),MASHED POTATOES,AND CORN(CREAM STYLED,OR,WHOLE KERNEL)ALL TOGETHER,IT TOPS ALL DINNERS IN MY EYES.Y YOU ASK?.BECAUSE,THIS MEAL MAKES A GREAT QUICK SIMPLE AND EASY DINNER.I ENJOY THIS MEAL WITH MY FAMILY QUITE OFTEN AND THEY LOVE IT.I GET TO THROW IN ALL MY DIFFERENT SEASONINGS,PARSLEY AND FRESH VEGETABLES(IF IM BOILING I LIKE TO BOIL SOME CARROTS AND POTATOES IN MY CHICKEN)IT MAKES A GREAT MEAL.YOU TO SHOULD TRY IT.
GROWING UP I HAD ALWAYS LOVED READING BUT AS I PROGRESSED IN AGE MY MEMORY HAS STARTED TO FADE ALTHOUGH IM ONLY TWENTY-FIVE MY BRAIN MAKES ME FEEL LIKE IM EIGHTY-FIVE;I CANT EVEN REMEMBER A NICK OF THINGS,LIKE YOU COULD HAVE BEEN DONE TOLD ME SOMETHING AND AS SOON AS YOU FINISH TELLING ME I WOULDN'T EVEN BE ABLE TO REPEAT OF TELL YOU WHAT YOU HAVE JUST TOLD ME.IT CAN BE A TOLL ON ME BECAUSE I CAN'T EVEN DO SOMETHING THAT I REALLY ENJOY DOING BUT I MAKE THE BEST OUT OF IT.
I HAVE BEEN WORKING AT WALMART FOR TWO YEARS AND NINE MONTHS.TWO YEARS AND NINE MONTHS TO LONG; ESPECIALLY FOR ME ESPECIALLY AROUND THAT KIND OF ENVIRONMENT I DON'T DO WELL AROUND A LOT OF PEOPLE;BECAUSE I DONT LIKE PEOPLE STARRING AT ME WHICH THEY TEND TO DO ANYWAYS BECAUSE I HAVE BROWN EYES.I DONT LIKE A CROWD OF INDIVIDUALS BECAUSE I GET CLAUSTROPHOBIC WHEN IM AROUND A LARGER GROUP OF PEOPLE OR AM PUT IN SMALL AREA. LASTLY;I WORK FAR MUCH MORE THEN WHAT THE COMPANY PAYS ME FOR EVERY TWO WEEKS.SHOULD I QUIT?.
THE FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL I WAS NERVOUS I DIDN'T KNOW WHAT TO EXPECT(I MEAN I BEEN TO COLLEGE BEFORE)BUT HILLSBOROUGH COMMUNITY COLLEGE IS DIFFERENT FROM THE PREVIOUS COLLEGE I ATTENDED BACK WHEN I FIRST STARTED.I DIDN'T KNOW WHAT TO EXPECT BEING THAT IT WAS SO DIFFERENT FROM MY LAST COLLEGE;HAD SO MANY UNANSWERED QUESTIONS AND WONDERS.WAS I GOING TO FAIL AGAIN OFTEN PLAYED IN MY HEAD ALL THE WAY UP UNTIL THE SECOND WEEK OF SCHOOL I HAVE COME TO THE REALIZATION THAT TAKING ONE STEP AT A TIME CAN GET U THERE TO.
FOR MY SPRING BREAK VACATION i would like to go out to Miami and check out all the shopping stores,flea markets,and bargain shops down their.do a little bit of shopping.get a couple of souvenirs to bring .next check out all the beaches and spas;get a little tan and do a little pampering to myself.lastly;check out all the clubs scenes and jute joints.see where all the parties are going to be during that weekend;because its going to be people coming from far and near so i'm pretty sure its going down somewhere.
looking back on how far i have come,from where i started is amazing to me.from a background where i was touched by older mans/boys because i had no one to protect or defend me.My mom found other things to do with her life then to raise the six kids she so proudly use to brag to everyone about;let state take custody of us.and my dad,well he had a job he would go get up to go to 5 o'clock in the morning and after that he didn't come home till he was drunk.
I first moved into my current place i stay in on January of last.I had my place before but i moved up here to be with my girlfriend.my girlfriend,her daughter,and i all stayed with one of her good friends with lots of rules.so,i was happy to get my place again.Actually we got the landlord to allow us to move in sooner since the previous tenant moved out and left all his items;we had to clean it up anyways so he didn't see any reason not to and for that he allowed it.
my favorite show to watch on TV are the judges (judge Judy Mathis,judge,Lauren,judge Alex etc).watching these shows is like my peace away from my troubles and sometime it really helps me take a step back and see life from a different perspective.because someone somewhere is always having a far more worse day,week,year,and or life.hearing other peoples stories and for them allowing the judges perspective on on the situations to see whats the next best thing to do makes me feels sometimes as if it was me in the court house then.
social media now and days are nothing like how it use to be when i was younger growing up.when i was younger growing up social media was not about bashing people and put peoples problems up for the world to know what one another was going threw,or bully people so much behind a screen till the point of them killing themselves.yet social media it that exact way today which makes it for unsafe for kids or anyone for any reason to be on there. that's why i don't think younger kids should be allowed on social media
growing up i use to always get teased at because i was this skinny,scrawny little girl with a Jerry curls.I have always always been the thinnest of the rest of all the other kids.i was so skinny;i was still wearing my baby sisters clothes up until i was in high school.one top of that I had a Jerry curl(an old fashion hairstyle at the time) to the other kids cause the only people that wore them at the time was their grandparents,so i was their grandparents is what they teased at me about.
i have written 20 essays so far.At first it was a little hard trying to catch up. But being that i started on the 15th day in the month I HAD TO WRITE MORE,WHICH MEANT MORE TOPICS To think of.BUT After a couple of these short stories i started getting the hang of it. words,and things to write about Started to come to my mind. and before you knew it i was on day 20,then day 21,and etc next thing you know i was caught up before you knew it i had it complete.
I have always wonder what was the real story behind a lot of america's disasters,ambushes and all their attacks that's happening in Americans now and days.how much is the government allowing us to see or know?.i wonder this because to many things are happening in american with unanswered reasons as to why their happening.is the government knowing this is going on and just keep allowing it to happen ,maybe they are just acting blind to the situations or is it something that hits them in the head when it all boils down the time it happens.
I had the craziest dream last night.last night i had a dream that i was pregnant;not with just one baby but two.twins and i could see myself going crazy because i couldn't handle both babies by myself.It was horrible,and a mess for me.just to image me having to take care of two kids brought tears to my eyes when i woke up out of my sleep because it's very hard and scary to even think about. And That why i'm to be sure to be married and settled down before any kids for me.
my world was flipped and turned even more then it already was when i was woken out of my sleep by my cousin to the news that my mom had just passed away.it was like someone had stuck their hand down my throat and pulled up all my insides right then.I grew nun and it was like everything froze in place,and so was i.I was stuck for a minute;it was like i was trying to walk on an windy day and the wind was blowing me back.And i miss her everyday that goes by.
oftern people likes to stereotype themselves.i don't like to stereotype myself because your not items so you shouldn't label yourself by putting tags(names)on yourselves for instance because you are loud and obnoxious that don't make you no different then the next so why should you be labeled as being ghetto.maybe you are just naturally loud and you can't help it or if a person speaks a certain type of way they call it slang.why cant they just have a accent with their talk.everybody is not that same.we all are different in some ways.
what makes a great place for a vacation? a trip to orlando. going on international drive makes me want to keep coming back.this spot has always been my spot since i was in high school.my aunt and cousins came up to visit us one time when we moved up there my freshman year in high school and boy was it fun. my aunt got a room on international drive;and i got to stay the night with them and me and my cousin stayed up all night in our room and did just about everything you could name.
on my vacation i said i was going to go to Orlando to take my baby to the Nickelodeon hotel.i wanted to show her all the little neat lil places down international drive.like the upside down house,Ripley believe it or not,and etc.that all failed when the mechanic told me that my car wouldn't be ready.i planned this ahead of time i scheduled my vacation around this time and all but it all went sour so my daughter wasn't to happy about it.she was upset for a while but i will make it up.
i love online shopping.it's so convenient for everyone no matter the situation.i enjoy it just to be able to lay in my bed and shop on my computer without having to even get up and go to and actual store and most websites have a reasonable policy and if you are not happy with and item they will be more then willing to help you return the item.i can stay up all night till the sunlight comes beam threw my blinds early in the morning.online shopping gives me a sense of enjoyment and i love it.
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