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Be happy and express the given talents that God placed in you, because happiness is what you make it to be, not what others define it as. Music is my happiness and to me it's defined as heart, mind and soul cleanser, it gives me this mellow feeling and a strong meditation on so many random unresolved thoughts that I've suppressed over the past few years. Music will forever be the best thing on my agenda when I'm feeling down or incomplete. Life is full of challenges but let's not make that an excuse to escape a beautiful dazzling SMILE.
We all are accustom to hate that we don't realize the greatness in good people. In society we choose to promote negativity rather than be positive and influence upcoming generations to do better and live better. This world is a big blob of confusion with great minds but less people to support those great minds, we disbelieve that we are the future and us individuals should groom our younger generation to be intellectual with a side of a good heart. Come together, build a less diverse universe, be happy and share moments. I'm with building society and not creating ruption.
What is it like being a Toni?. Being a Toni takes a lot out of your day. She smiles 24/7 just by expressing her great sense of humor, full of excitement and shares it with everyone, shes adventurous, fun, sociable, determined, inspiring and spontaneous. But those are the simple obvious attributes. Being a Toni can be challenging at times because she can be brutally honest and not all can handle and she share her opinions no matter what others would think of her. But most of all her personality lights up others, a happy friend is a happy her.
The greatness of a man is not how much wealth he acquires, but his integrity and his ability to affect those around him positively. Goodness is about character, integrity, honesty, kindness, generosity but more than anything else, it is about how we treat people. How we treat people determines what our days will look like but we fail to deal with people the way we would want to be treated. We criticize each other as quick as possible but find it hard to compliment, to make someones day terrific. Challenge yourself to make a difference in the world around us.
I am living while I am living to the father I will pray,only he knows how we get through everyday.With all the hike in the price, arm and leg we have to pay while our leaders play. No love for people who are suffering really bad, another toll for the poor, may God help our soul. What can stop the youths from getting out of control, full of education but don't own a pay roll. Who can afford to run will run but what about those who can't they will have to stay. COMPETITIVE WORLD, LOW BUDGET PEOPLE.
Today i'll totally admit that I am weird. I've been told that i'm weird a million times but I never actually own up to it. Being weird is super fun especially when you don't care what others think. For instance; standing outside of Walmart looking in there mirror and doing gangnam style like a boss, talking in funny accents all the time without any reasons behind it, throbbing my hands like a cat at my next door neighbor when he's not looking etc. (can't be said unless you're talking to me personally). But the Moral of this short story is to be weird all the time no matter where you are or who your with because we weird people are the BOOOOOOMB (literally).
Moving from one country to another can be depressing sometimes. For one, you'll miss your friends you've been around for most of your life, you have to get acclimated with your new environment especially if your country as a totally different culture, secondly you miss out on events with family and friends which was important to you your whole entire life. But as soon as you get use to being away, your thought process changes and you also get exposed to many different cultures and their way of life which is pretty interesting, but it's not that bad and i'm learning to adopt so that's all that matters now.
I felt so happy that I could go to bed peacefully Tuesday night without waking up 5 in the morning for school, Yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaayyyy, Until I heard banging on my door 5:30 in the morning. When I answered the door a voice said its time to go the gym, but I totally forgot that I agreed on doing that. I was so pissed, and all I could do was get dressed without brushing my teeth nor washing my face because someone was in a hurry and told me to not worry about that. So I kept my mouth shut the whole entire workout because I was looking fiiiiinnnneee as hell and that doesn't blend with bad breath, btw my workout was great but painful.
I want to love you, and treat you right, I want to love you, every day and every night, We'll be together, with a roof right over our heads, We'll share the shelter, of my single bed, We'll share the same room, yeah! For Jah provide the bread. Is this love that I'm feeling? I want to know now! I got to know now! I'm willing and able, So I throw my cards on your table! I want to love you, I want to love and treat you right, I want to love you every day and every night.
Waking up to the sun bright and beautiful is the best thing I could ever ask for. While there're people out there that didn't get the chance to see it today, I will pray for you and appreciate the chance I have to live. Everything happens for a reason and I know there is a reason i'm still here and healthy enough to go through my day so i'll live and praise my goals that God wants me accomplish without whining as soon as difficult times comes around. Life is beautiful and I won't let the sin of it get me down.
They will say you don't belong They will assume you don't relate They will underline your wrongs They will expect you to be late You are special. Those cold lonely dark hallways called what if, yup those are around. But if you don't back down, you'll unlock that door to warm hearts and dope situations and a room full us called what now?. You wake up, you win You try, you win You fail, you still win. Long as you're alive because if you die, what then? They will tell you that you only live once & that's true, but if you live correct and inspire him, that's two and she, that's three, four and more, five and strive. CREATE YOUR DREAM THAT CREATES YOUR TEAM.
Well Tuesday is Valentines day and i'm looking forward in buying my sister and mom chocolate and ice-cream for us to enjoy with a little bit of candle light and girl chit chat. Its too bad my dad can't join us because he's a thousand miles away and I don't have a boyfriend which it not much of a bad thing but that's the least knowing I got family to share all this joy with. I hope everyone enjoy this day and every other day with just love and happiness (al greens voice) and also be grateful in every little situation that comes in your life.
Where did you go? Why would you stay? You must have lost your marbles, you always were so forgetful, in a hurry, don't wait up. I was too late, I was too late. A shadow of what I once was, cause we don't, we don't do what we say we're gonna. You were always perfect, and I was only practice, don't you miss the days, stranger?, don't you miss, don't you miss the days danger?. We don't do the same drugs no more, we don't do the same drugs no more.
I went to the library today to find a book that I would enjoy reading for a few hours. While looking I found a book called American Tapestry which is a documentary about the first lady Michelle Obama's ancestors. The book was mostly about how she did a background search on her ancestors and their history and how she came about. This book is pretty interesting and I love the fact that it's helping to broaden my knowledge to a different side of the world that I would never have thought of and I can't wait to continue reading it.
Doing the wrong thing won't let stop God from blessing you. You will just end up in bad situations and have to start over again until you do the right thing. When you are discipline, obedient and faithful, God will bring you the full manifestation of what he has in mind for you. He'll bring you his plan A, the best destiny you could imagine. We all need God's guidance through out whatever we do and decisions we make and we're never alone because he is with us every step we take no matter how difficult the journey will be.
In life God send signs and not leave us guessing. Signs to tell us to slow down, be patient and quiet yourself. These signs include; a break up, physical, mental and emotional exhaustion, negative and hurtful people leaving your life, feeling lose and purposeless, an opportunity to go on a long trip or retreat to put your mind to ease, the awareness that you've been repeating the same mistakes for years, persistent frustration, and lack of peace. Many times God tries to keep our hearts away from people who weren't mean't for it but we still ignore obvious signs and hurt yourself anyways. (God doesn't show your heart to everybody, he shows it to people who deserves to see it)
My life feel so much better and I can finally inhale fresh air without soaking up a lot of negativity. You have no idea how it felt like to be around ignorant and insulting people every single day. A community that discriminates you 24/7 and never can give a compliment to make you feel accepted. I use to be deeply insecure only because of where I came from and who I was associating with. Now things have changed in a snap of finger "Gods finger", and i'm learning to accept myself and who God called me to be everyday. I AM THE HAPPIEST PERSON ON THIS EARTH.
I need to go to a lit Caribbean party. Its been so long since I've moved my waistline to fast and slow rythem for the whole night without stopping. I just want to dance the night away with friends I love dearly and understands me the most, and not giving a rat about who's watching me. Gyol wine and bruk off yuh back Bruk off yuh back Bruk off yuh, bruk off yuh, bruk off yuh back Mek mi send it up in you, send it up in yooooouuuuuu.
Life is filled with so much excitement but corruption at the same time. Their are times I want to talk to everyone and another time i'm just like heck with it. It can be so difficult to know who to open up to and who to keep things at hi and bye with. Most person I've become friends with always prove themselves as betrayers before I go into a long term friendship which is a blessing in disguise, but it's whatever. I'll keep being humble and pray that all will be okay in the rest of my young years.
I really want to be family lawyer but at the same time I just want to help people. I find this great joy in being a benefit to others who are helpless and my heart weeps when hearing stories of children and adults that had been in situations they couldn't do anything about. I want to be the person that rescues the hopeless and show them best of life and how good life is. Its also so incredible because I can relate to most of their stories. I once was in a dysfunctional family, been lost in the world and in its depression etc, but I kept it moving and believe others can as well.
I will never regret you, or say I wish I never met you, because once upon a time you were exactly what I needed. God don't place people in your life to hurt but to serve a purpose, and leave when that purpose was mastered. We receive people in our life as lessons, those are the ones we choose to hold on to when we should let go, and we have the once in a life time the ones who were made to stick with us through thick and thin, those are the ones we discriminate and shut out.
Once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn you world around. You tell them things that you've never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. you share hopes for your future, dreams that will never come trough, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown to you. When something wonderful happens, you can't wait to tell them about it, knowing they will help share your excitement. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are.
If she's amazing, she won't be easy. If she's easy, she won't be amazing. If she's worth it, you won't give up. If you give up, you are not worthy. Truth is everyone is going to hurt you, but you just got to find the ones worth suffering for. Love hard when there is love to be had because the perfect person don't exist, but there's always one person that is perfect for you. Live with one love, one heart and, one destiny because you can't live in that negative way, but you can make way for that positive day.
2016 was a good year but filled with a few bad memories. Nevertheless, I ran trough it all and i'm here standing happy and healthy. My wounds are healing and will be gone for 2018 making my future look clear and ravishing. I lost my friends and now i'm stuck with one. The truth to this journey is all will fail you, but how well can you handle their failure?. Lessons learn't and i'll hold no grudge, but my heart will hold the memories of hurt so i'll be prepared next time. Preparing to smile when the history repeats itself.
I am watching over all of Being Mary Jane's seasons so I can get a better visual for season 4. I am addicted now and this Tv show is killing me emotionally. I seriously don't know why she is doing this to herself because she is so beautiful. Now I have a full understanding on what women go through. The pain of having a soul tie with someone that doesn't love you the way you should be loved. OMG !!!!! I have an headache now because of the 6 episodes I watched in 6 hours and 30 minutes.
My Paster gave a good sermon this morning which I 100% agree with and explains today's society. He spoke about ways in being a peace maker. Those ways were to look inside yourself and admit your wrongs because to be honest 95% of the times conflict starts by both party and the next 5% is one party does something wrong and you're manipulated by it. The natural progression of conflict is I desire so I demand and if I don't get my way I will judge and my judging will turn into a punishment. Humble yourselves before the lord, and he will lift you up, written in James chapter 4:10.
He's not perfect. You aren't either, and the two of you will never be perfect. But if he can make you laugh at least once, causes you to think twice, and if he admits to being human and making mistakes, hold onto him and give him the most you can. He is't going to quote poetry, he's not thinking about you every moment, but he will give you a part of him that he knows you could break. Don't hurt him, don't change him, and don't expect more than he can give. Don't analyze. Smile when he makes you happy, yell when he makes you mad, and miss him when he's not there. Love hard when there is love to be had. Because perfect guys don't exist, but there is always one guy that is perfect for you.
Strength is following through with your dreams even though you experience bumps along the way. No matter how much it hurts now, someday you will look back and realize your struggles changes your life for the better. Hard times are most often blessings in disguise s let go and let life strengthen you. Just keep in mind that you were never created to live depressed, defeated, guilty, condemned, ashamed or unworthy. You were created to be victorious. Be beautiful inside out and acquire all the greatness because having a beautiful heart can bring things into your life that all the money in the world couldn't obtain.
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