October 15, 2006
Not to test her, but I won't call her, just wait instead. How long will go by before she detects a missing of me. The end result will not determine anything about us, which should automatically null a reason for the test, but choice escapes me and I must know if it is always me who remembers first. I know too well the outcome, so why even go through with it? By week three, I will find a reason to ask her about something trivial and all of a sudden she'll need me. This doesn't change things, so why wonder.