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November 17, 2004
Is there a reason for me to still be pushing? I really can't and won't understand how high school seniors stay on track, keep to their lines, continue marching against all reason. Look at me! Damn it! I am a wreck…I'm simultaneously not doing any work/activities in school whilst feeling absolutely terrible about it.

And somehow, somehow, although I'm not doing anything, I seem to continually be exhausted. I keep falling asleep in class. I sleep during the afternoons. I nodded off while Tom was talking to me today.

He reached over and pushed up my chin, smiling like always.