October 31, 2003
Twisted indifference brought on by alcohol. Caught in the throes of a bipolar episode. I question all the actions I've taken and passed by. This lifetime has been so special in so many ways. I can't explain all the frustration and anger I feel at times. Tomorrow is a new month to get lost in. Maybe I can find my way past all this insanity I wallow in. If only I can pull myself through this swamp of defeat. I always thought I had something better to offer the world. I guess I only have to prove this to myself.