September 22, 2003
I hate to host, but somehow I always end up hosting a dinner party, or a Halloween party. I blame my sister, since she's the one who comes up with the ideas and then, in her usual diplomatic way, rationalizes reasons for my hosting it. Yesterday I was in a funk because I have this party coming up this weekend, and I thought "Why am I hosting? What if no one comes? What if people come, but they're the people I don't really like and just invited as fillers?" These are the questions I am grappling with. We will see.