April 5, 2002
Men are strange creatures. I speak from experience. I don't understand myself at times like this. There was a moment of beauty that just passed and I can let it go now. He was special and caring and wonderful. Why can't I be like that? Why can't I be with him the way I would like instead of the way it has to be? I'm no closer to finding where I'm going but I do feel like I'm moving on. I guess I'm moving on whether I feel like I am or not. Time does not allow one to back-peddle.