August 29, 2017
We have everything but the marriage. I don't see how people can sleep together, live together, cook together without the assurance of a lifetime bond. I would feel better if we were truly bonded. Then this whole thing wouldn't feel so bad. I only have 25 days of pain and then we will be together like we are supposed to be. I am struggling to get used to this. It's a huge transition, and all I can say is that I hope I don't fail in it. I want to do the best I can with what I have and that's what I'm trying to do.