This month marks the end of many things. End of semester (oh yes please), end of my last stats subject (double yes please) and end of the financial year. It's a time to review the budget, get ready to put in my tax return (and work out the most effective things to spend it on), plan what to do in semester break (cleaning and gardening feature highly unfortunately) and feels like the end and the beginning (which of course it is). It also is a time to start planning to cook cakes and puddings for Christmas. It's a busy month!
Making a decision before you are faced with all the confounding pressures of a situation is the smartest way to choose the right thing to do. For example, if you decide beforehand that you will always be honest, then when you are faced with the temptation of telling a lie, your actions are easy. Despite the temptation to do otherwise, you've already decided on your course of action. I find Sunday's are a similar issue for me. Due to religious reasons I have chosen not to work, and not to study. When faced with a conflict my action is clear.
There's nothing to write about today. My day has been filled with work and study. There's been no time for anything else, and there won't be until after my exam next week. I'm getting really tired and it is now just a matter of digging deep and soldiering on. I'm quite sure this post is boring enough without going into the intracacies of statistics and yet there is nothing else in my head...Work, study, work, study, work, study, work, study,work, study, and for a change, study, study, study. Tuesday is too soon but can't come quickly enough.
There's a lot riding on this exam. I won't fail the subject, but not getting a high distinction is equivalent to failing the subject when it comes to being invited to do honours. I'm currently sitting on 80% for the subject and need to get a minimum of 90% in the exam to get the grade I need. That's a really big ask! I'm honestly not sure if it's achievable. The pressure is really starting to tell as Ipush my body to ridiculous limits to achieve this goal. I'm very, very tired and ready for semester to finish.
Today we celebrate the Queen's birthday. At least the rest of the country may well be celebrating. I have my exam tomorrow and my day has been mostly filled with revision and study. I've checked the forum a few times and others are also stressing well. We've tried to encourage each other and dispell nerves with reassurances of how well we've all done until now. It's been a harrowing semester and the need to excel has taken it's toll on most of us. This is a very competitive degree, but there are very few who aren't team players.
Our secretary messaged this morning. Her precious Milo passed away in the early hours of this morning. He meant the world to her family. He was the child she couldn't have. They will miss him terribly. I doubt she will be at work at all this week. My heart goes out to her. Reality also hits and means I pretty much have 2 jobs to do. The task list is getting longer by the minute. I'm very glad I had my break. At least I have energy. A few carefully worded emails will induce team work and we'll get through.
New beginnings can be daunting and I'm a little daunted. You've been an integral part of my life for many years, and now you won't be. I will walk my path alone. That isn't to say that I won't have friend - I am blessed with more than my fair share of wonderful friends - but you, who knows me like no other and still loves me anyway, will not walk my path with me any longer. That's a little sad, but it's ok. This was my choice and it's time. An eagle flies alone and it's my time to fly.