Honesty's really important to me. It takes a brave person to be totally honest, especially with themselves. I think that's one of the hardest things to do - mostly because I don't think we often realise we're lying to ourselves. Being strong enough to admit when you're wrong and sincerely apologise and try to make things right is a virtue that is sadly lacking in today's society. Don't fall victim to the temptation to justify the things you do wrong. Wrong is wrong and you can't move forward until you acknowledge that, and two wrongs never ever make a right!
Choice and accountability are metaphorically two opposing ends of the same stick. They are inextricably linked and you just can't have one without the other. While the right to choose is something that I would fight passionately for, let's not forget that every choice has a consequence and while we are usually free to choose our actions, we are not free to choose the consequences. Neither are they always obvious. Some choices, even little ones, have far reaching consequences that go on for years, and no one promised they would either be logical or fair. That's just how it is...
Not that I'm unwell and my body is giving up. It's not - in fact, apart from not being able to shake a bout of bronchitis for some weeks my body is holding up quite well. But, for all that, I'm carrying a few more pounds than is comfortable nowadays. I'm a little more breathless playing with my grandchildren than I'd like and the lift is a much more comfortable option than the stairs. However, middle age is not a stage my body is particularly enjoying. What is wonderful is the sense of self and confidence that I now enjoy.
For all my advice about balance I've had the most tiring weekend trying to finish an assignment and incorporate friend and family time. That means that "sleep time" has not been in balance with everything else and I'm tireder than I want to admit. As I get older 4 hours sleep just isn't enough, in fact, sometimes 8 hours sleep isn't enough. The problem is that my schedule doesn't allow for 8 hours most nights. I could cut back on what I do and sleep more but then I'd miss out on some things. So, really, tired isn't so bad.