March 23, 2008
One of the things I hate most about myself is that I'm a pleaser. That's why I suck at decision making--I know whatever decision I make, someone gets hurt. But I just really hate disappointing people. I hate the disappointed look on their faces. Most of all, I hate disappointing myself. I am myself's worst pleaser--I just cannot be satisfied with myself. I can't count the few times I've stared in a mirror and realize that I am not happy with who I am--with every single thing that I am. And i start to hate myself for it.