March 6, 2008
i'm now watching her undergo the same angst, hate, love, confusion and frustration i used to feel because of him. the feeling that you just want to scream, hit someone let out all the anger bottled up inside. and then you decide that you hate him--you hate him so much for making you feel hurt, feel angry, feel worthless and feel so much pain all at the same fucking time. then you realize you hate yourself more--because of how much you love him and how much it hurts because you know that no matter what, you always will.