February 5, 2008
I've got a little painful spot on my body, never mind where. (Here's a hint: It hurts most when I stand up.) So I'm spending a lot of time wondering if it'll ever go away. Could this be the big one? the final illness? I wonder and wonder and the days go by, sitting down, standing up, sitting down, standing up.... Maybe I'll wind up having some parts falling off or getting amputated. Or dying. (We know that's going to happen, but will this be the cause?) I've read The Death of Ivan Ilyich. Is this the end of me?