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October 25, 2007

so I cannot change some things
or haven't yet
maybe I never
ever
will
that's going to have to be okay
even if it's not

the point being I'm not
not
going to beat myself
               pummel myself
               denigrate myself
other than what slips through
the cracks cut deep
into my soul
my amigo ego

which doesn't want me to
            accept myself
            forgive myself
            enjoy my life
            my days
            my nights
            my any other goddamn time
            either

no,
ego doesn't want that
but I catch the bastard
now and again
smile at it
which melts it
I'm freed
and move on