October 18, 2007
I spent way too much time with a guy I sponsor tonight. Chris. And in fact it wasn't even too much time; it was that he cannot understand the process of letting go the ego. He is walking through the process of the steps but he just isn't getting it; he cannot understand the mechanics of the goddamned ego. And his ego is eating his goddamned lunch.
It's exhausting, listening to him grind it out hour upon hour.
It's exactly what I was like when I got sober, and for years afterward; too spun to make sense of it all.