October 5, 2007
I spoke tonight with three great guys I sponsor, one after the next. A pleasure. I love them all.
It's a hazard, loving alcoholics is -- they'll break your heart, sometimes, open to love them knowing they might haul ass at any time, not to mention you might watch them fucking die, especially if they are also mentally ill. Also: I know I'm 'supposed to' stay on my own boat while their craft spins and founders -- Hey, fuck all that, sometimes I get in their goddamned boat.
I'm not as much a fool for womens love anymore but I'm exposed here.