March 13, 2007
it wasn't a good idea. but when i called him to suggest it again, i was into it: "really, if bernadette turns out to be smokin' hot and you will fulfill some sexual fantasy by doing her, you should. but the rule is: you have to come back and share all the gory details." i was stoned enough to really believe that i was being sincere. we all have sexual fantasies, after all. but when he didn't come back after an hour, i was sorry i’d said it. i wasn’t ready for that yet. and all night i felt terrible.