June 7, 2004
Too tired too often. Tired of dealing with bills, the sickening circular motion of money. You chase it, it chases you, and others chase you as you close in on it. Money may not make the world go round, but the world goes around making money. The effort is tiring, coffee is tiring, TV is tiring, money is tiring, staying up late is tiring, but going to bed and dreaming about waking up is tiring too. Eyes feeling as heavy as bags of old gold, pulling me down into the least restful of sleeps, tired at dusk, tired at dawn.