May 16, 2004
The Countess of Rad has another birthday; that means Spilman's birthday isn't far away. I don't know what to do about that situation. If I only knew for sure she was well, I wouldn't be happy but I'd accept her choice to move on and move past our friendship. In some ways it seems impossible that would really be her choice, but people do change. Or maybe I did something that upset her, I don't know. It has now been well over a year since she last contacted me. I will be there if she decides to reach out now.