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April 16, 2004

It would be different if

    - it hadn't been so goddamn good.

    - she hadn't said she was in, promised she was in, totally and completely.

    - I hadn't trusted in her completely.

    - she hadn't told me that she knew she was in a pattern.

    - she hadn't said 'Please hang in, I will not run'.

    - she had faced her pattern instead of running.

    - I didn't think she loved me when it ended.

    - I didn't put everything I had into it.

    - I hadn't had the best days of my life with her.

    - I didn't still love her.

    - I didn't have this stupid, willful heart.