August 16, 2003
Life has become much easier now that I have accepted the fact that I’m not particularly attractive. OK. I’m ugly. Painful, because I suddenly realize why I’m not married, never get asked out even. Easier, because when I think of the “why” about not being married, or being asked out, I have an answer. Most of life’s frustrations, anger, and fear are as a result of the unknown; the lack of reason or explanation, or ability to attribute the relationship of cause and effect. Our lives, like metal in a hot fire, and we the black smiths. I choose gold.