May 4, 2006
I felt as if I was in a daze. I watched and listened to the people around me jumping around, dancing , crying and singing and I felt as if I should be there - as if the fact that I was not was a sin. It hurts me, because I want to really praise God with all my heart, but I know we're all different. I cannot act as they act, no matter how much I try. I live in fear that they will react like they did with that one girl - proud, and not happy for her.