April 1, 2003
New moon darkness often brings unexpected clarity or recognition. A year into things, I no longer feel a surge of Field Marshal adrenalin kick in when a system goes down. I'm much more at ease worrying only about those parts of things that are my responsibility. I realized today that I still haven't had the management lobotomy: the welfare and happiness of "my boys" is more important than the business justification for something that is not morally right. This is the real reason I'll never make it to the senior levels here, or anywhere else. Except, possibly, my own company.