September 27, 2002
I feel so uncomfortable right now. Besides the physical fact that I'm really tired, I feel overwhelmed. Reading the notebook for class, I realized that if I had perused this book before, I might not have joined so quickly. I hate it. I couldn't quite finish it, but it's all the "terms" and "checklists" and "exercises" I loathe about typical classes. It complicates it immensely. Maybe I hate this profession after all. The class is anything but typical, and I'm constantly inspired; but if this is the spine of it, I'm screwed. I'm terrified that I've made the wrong decision.