September 17, 2002
I'm pissed. That's my conclusion for the day. But pissed in a larger sense. I feel like I've been that way for a while now. I thought I was just agitated lately, but I'm beginning to think it's legitimate anger. Things haven't evolved the way I wanted them to … or expected them to, obviously. Sometimes it's sadness too. I want success for others, yet usually it incites a desire to throw in the towel for good. Not that I haven't already… some half-assed efforts do not a pursuit make. I'm wasting away in this sludge of doubt and bitterness.