September 6, 2002
I wonder what it's like to be her. It seems lonely sometimes. Nevertheless, after we left them tonight, I felt lonely. As if she is doing something worthwhile and I'm not. I wonder if motherhood does that… makes everything else seem trivial so that your offspring is your priority. I suppose if there are no financial issues, there are just other things that arise. Like loneliness. Or a struggle to overcome addiction. Or simply, more decisions. Children change people. I believe it probably made her happier. It can also make one feel as if they missed out on their dreams.