September 4, 2002
Everything costs so much. I do need to make some money. I have this dilemma, definitely. Kim and Joan want me why? Because I worked, at one point. They're not what I need, though. I need change. Better jobs. I need more clout. I also really want to like my representation. I need to. It's too awful otherwise. So, do I even venture into this craziness again? Why? Money. But, what does it cost me emotionally until then? What are my priorities? Today was okay, but it would've been better had it not been so long. I really felt it.