March 7, 2002
Man oh man. If they only knew. How confused you are. How detached you are. How deeply, deeply incompetent you are. What an out-to-lunch spaceshot you are. How you sweat and tremble in terror at the idea of them finding you out. Finding out how nervous you are. How disconnected you are. How inarticulate you are with regards to anything genuine. How shallow you are. How you lack anything resembling CONVICTION. Mary, mother of god. You'd be in deep shit if they found you out. They can't find out. They can never know. Stay on guard. Don't tell a soul.