January 11, 2019
I started cancelling doctor visits and other scheduled appointments today. It has become clear to me that this visit is not going to be just a week, as I had originally hoped. I will be lucky if it is only two weeks, but words cannot express how unhappy that thought makes me. I am trying to face this appalling reality now, rather than deny it until it is too late, as happened last spring. I am also trying to think of dadís behavior as medicine induced side-effects, but I seem to be having real problems with that perspective.