November 19, 2017
I am so fucking happy. That's a total and complete lie. I'm so miserable, it's unbearable. This is the feeling that suicidal people get. They get so low that they think there's no better way than to just end it all. I have thought of suicide many many times in the past, but I have never activated that thought. Meanwhile, I'm wondering where I put that prosthesis. I have a falsie. And I took it off and put it down and forgot where I put it. That has not really happened before. I guess I was in a mood yesterday.