June 17, 2017
Today I learned a word that underscored my estrangement with my sister. The word is perfidious. The thesaurus says: treacherous, duplicitous, deceitful, disloyal, faithless, unfaithful, traitorous, treasonous, false, false-hearted, double-dealing, two-faced, Janus-faced, untrustworthy. Bam! Need I say more? This is my sister. Maybe just a bit more: manipulative. I accept her for who she is. Iíve let go of the story and the drama (thatís forgiveness, right?) But who would invite more of that into their life? Not me! The door is closed. Locked. There is a window. Sometimes I wonder about the real good-bye.