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March 10, 2017
Of course I'm freaked out by how quickly time has gone by.

As I understand it, the healthy reaction involves focusing on making the most of my future rather than getting hung up on the past.

This does not come naturally to me. My instinct is to wallow and mope about missed opportunities and deny the possibility that there's anything left to look forward to, so the whole thing has been a pointless waste of time. I'm trying hard to force myself to experience the healthy reaction, but I only have so much energy and the days are often long.