June 17, 2016
Saturday morning. As I drink coffee, read the paper online, I'm also formulating a long to-do list. I keep adding things, keep subtracting the time slots I have available. The process is largely unconscious, but coming to light now. My anxiety builds. As my anxiety builds so does my resistance to getting started. Thus the slacking time, this computer time, elongates into a morning marathon that doesn't want to end. So there's the pattern. Now, where's the will to change it? Mindfulness is clearly a very important tool for change. Mindfulness is self awareness. It's the decision making mechanism.