March 15, 2016
My defense mech is to expect the worst and believe that this, today, right now, is the worst and it can never be resolved. It works for when I finally calm down and realize, Ah, it isn't so bad after all, and I look at imaginary "Worst-case-scenario Kat" standing in the corner, wringing her hands, call for her and tell her "HEY, worst is not possible, worst does not exist, worst is an imagination." And then she cries in sweet release then poof, she's gone. Thing is, I go through this process every single day it's kinda tiring.