June 26, 2015
I clawed my way out of co-dependence. It's hard now to think back to my maligned position and remember the justifications or defenses that held me in that place. I couldn't be happy unless I brought him to understand, thus accept my explanations or actions. I had to be understood and accepted, or I couldn't move forward. It was too painful to not be in his graces. I couldn't act for my own good, like there was a net he had over me and my belief was that to slide out of the net would be my death. Weird.