January 9, 2015
Got my hair cut today. I'm looking like June Underwood, except not at pretty or as young, lol. But, styled feels good. Not scraggly anymore. I unscaled my apparel and donned some makeup to emphasize the improvement. I even played new upbeat music at the store tonight. Appearances. My upbringing emphasized the importance. It was as if Mom believed our shallowness needed a boost. As if she believed there was nothing inside us worthwhile. Of course she never spent any time to challenge her assumption. Ahh, narcissistic parents. I have to fight the impulse to have fun with old habits.