October 17, 2013
Aging brain or accomplished wisdom? Of course I choose wisdom, but I sense it's more the former. i.e. In years past, I had the sense that I existed through the eyes of other people; an ever present sense that unless my thoughts, feelings, events were spilled onto someone else as a witness, they didn't count. Or, that I couldn't process them. This was an ego starvation state. It seems weird now; actually pathetic. But bonding among females took place through problem sharing. I'm so over it. Urge to share? Now, I can settle myself with "I don't need attention."