March 9, 2013
This is not depression. This is exhaustion fog. This is relationship ripping. Depletion. Depletion of energy, good will, any will to keep going. It is grief stricken paralysis, battle fatigue, mental anguish overload. Shock and horror; the anticipation of what will be the next emotionally loaded decision we have to make together? The reason it is not depression is that there is a sliver of hope for the future. She is leaving today. Optimism and spaciousness will resume when I can feel relief from her presence. I will mentally shut the door on this devastating betrayal by my ex sister.