Her father was never the same after that, and neither was she. Now looking back after the end of her marriage, the loss of her son, and, to some extent, the loss of the children who no longer lived with her, she saw a series of abandonments. It seemed that everyone she loved left her in some way. She couldn’t save her mother or her baby. She wasn’t a good enough reason for her mother to stay alive or for her husband to stay. She wasn’t enough, never was. She decided to never fall in love again.