Their mother struggled, emotionally and financially. She couldn’t believe that she was left alone with two of her children, the two allotted to her, while rarely seeing the other two. Her ex-husband, in contrast, seemed to be perfectly happy with his replacement wife and the two children he had chosen, living the good life in the most exciting cities of the world, without a care in the world except The Magazine’s deadlines. She felt left behind, frightened, abandoned, ashamed, the same way she had after her mother committed suicide. I am never enough, she thought. Never enough.