June 15, 2011
I would run because I thought I was encountering something that was evil, something that was "not of this earth", and therefore something that I could not understand or explain. I realize that I was very afraid of not being like other people. I was afraid of having thoughts and feelings and beliefs that I could not discuss with others, because that is what I would use as a grounding mechanism. If other people understood and accepted what I was saying/thinking, then I wasn't crazy. I was so internally focused, yet I constantly searched for approval outside of myself.