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January 28, 2011
I'm going to be honest. It's very difficult for me to "feel" anymore. I went so long trying to suppress how I feel. "Lio is--stop. Lio--stop. Basa--stop. I wasn't g--stop."

All of it, stop.

It felt good. It felt better... to pretty much just ignore my problems and hope they went away. Denial is a double-edged blade, however. I feel like I'm being judged a little. By who? Maybe myself.

Maybe the people who apparently read my diaries. Somewhere I dreamed someone would read them, but now I wish they were mine and mine alone.