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January 8, 2011
I wonder where I'm going with my life at time. I feel lighter than I have in a while - I guess somehow I'm desperately trying to do anything to keep myself from feeling pain.

I eat more. I sleep later. I play video games if I start to try thinking...

Maybe I'm miserable even though I feel fine. I'm letting myself go - I wonder what A would say of me now...

I keep refreshing the same page, even though I don't want to. Live updates, guestbook (checking for a message), visitors (checking for his name). Then I reread the post...