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October 21, 2010
Sometimes while I sleep, I forget to breathe.

Not in that snoring, clogged throat, apnea sort of way, but as if my breath got softer and softer and shorter and shorter until I just wasn't breathing anymore. It wakes me up, and I am paralyzed by the amount of fear and adrenaline coursing through me. It takes me a moment to calm down and realize what's wrong. And then, with so much effort it's painful, I make my lungs start working again.

Sometimes, when I'm doing nothing out of the ordinary, my heart beats hard enough to hurt.

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