May 21, 2010
I quail at the thought of living like this for the rest of my life: trapped in regretful self-condemnation for one desperate deed, for becoming involved in an affair. I didnít want to hurt anybody. I merely wanted to be happy, and I was so blinded by my own unhappiness that I fell headlong into a relationship which, in the end, didnít work out anyway. It taught me a lot: that everything we do is for the sake of finding joy, that I had become real good at suppressing my unhappiness, that I didnít know myself.