February 24, 2010
It is very difficult to just sit back and contemplate what it is I want, my deepest longings. About ten seconds after I think about it, I cannot help but start planning and plotting how to make it happen. Or that it is impossible, there’s nothing I can specifically do to make it happen – in which case, what started off as a pleasant exercise in visualization becomes a session of frustration. But the fleeting moment of peace that comes in the first ten seconds is amazing, so I’ll try this again, just long enough to summon that moment of peace.