January 6, 2010
I understand that God has a plan, but I don't understand why Josh had to die to be part of that overall plan. Why can't my daughter be happy? And why can't he take Paulie's worthless brother, a man who steals and lies and makes no contribution to the world? Or me, because I so don't want to be alive anymore. At least if I had died, she would still have her husband by her side. I really and truly wish I could pull the trigger or slice my wrists. That would surely teach those who take me for granted.