July 26, 2009
It is so frustrating when something you want is suddenly so near and yet so far away at the same time. It is more difficult to handle then when there's seemingly no hope of it ever coming to pass – because of that four letter word, hope. Once you start to hope, your expectations suddenly rise again and you start living in the future, rather than in the now. That is dangerous, not being in contact with the now. I don't want to wish my life away waiting for the future to arrive, yet I can't wait for the change.