January 6, 2009
I bought a video camera. I've been watching lots and lots and lots of films lately. I think I want to be a filmmaker. I want to make movies about characters who struggle, characters who don't always win. I think sometimes sad endings are the best endings; sometimes it's best not to be too hopeful. Because, if you're too hopeful, too optimistic, you get crushed. Sometimes it's not the results that crush you, but the realization that the results are not going to work in your favor. I prefer to be a pessimest, and save my hope for other things.