I May be going mental.

Of Course, I have no actual proof of it. But I am sure that's what's going on.

My friend and I were looking through the lyrics of hit mainstream songs yesterday. None of us are particular fans of mainstream (Autotune and the same word being used over and over? What?) but we were both surprised when we realized: All these songs that pop-lovers and hyper teens get excited about? They're all about Sex and drugs.

How are these topics allowing people to make millions?

I am eight years old. It is autumn, and I am taking a walk on a forest trail with my grandfather. In the woods we encounter a homeless man who is drunk. My grandfather engages the man in conversation, which quickly escalates into a fight. Suddenly my grandfather pulls out a knife and slashes the homeless man’s throat, killing him. My grandfather quietly informs me that if I tell anyone about this incident, he will do the same thing to my mother, and then to me. Terrified, I tell no one and convince myself that it is a bad dream.

What am I afraid of? Nothing really, or is just that I do not want to be uncomfortable? I have officially bored myself with this topic. I know what I have to do. I am just avoiding it, because it's hard and scary. Fear of the unknown. That thought process goes against what I believe, so why am I feeding into it? Suck it up, get it out, and relax. Just like the day after the final. At some point you stop caring about the final, you just want it to be over so you can move on to newness.